Stasis

Stasis2011-08-14T22:38:07+00:00
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  • Cyberry
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    Dear Gabrielle

    For the past two months, after two and a half years of fairly intensive Bikram yoga practice (4-5 times per week, sometimes more frequently), I have grown increasingly discontented with the yoga to the extent that I fear that I am on the verge of losing my passion for it…
    Needless to say, it upsets me a great deal considering how much pleasure I used to derive from it and how totally committed I felt to my practice. I have had ‘less enthusiastic spells’ in the past but I recognised them for what they were and simply kept on attending class with the desired effect.
    This time it’s different and I don’t seem to be able to pinpoint exactly what caused this radical shift – or what the best course of action would be to overcome it.
    About two and a half months ago, I started experiencing light-headedness, nausea, a lack of energy/stamina and severe difficulty breathing about five postures into class. This has happened before, and coincidentally, at the same time of the year – when humidity levels shoot up. It turned out that I had an iron deficiency which I took supplements for and to address the shortness of breath, I started attending the ‘cooler’ 6: 30 am class. I also started running to build up my stamina and somehow these measures combined worked a treat.
    This time round, despite increasing my iron intake (I still go to class in the evening and could not maintain the running schedule I started for reasons that will become clear below) – my ‘symptoms’ gradually grew worse – mostly the dizziness and fatigue – to the extent that the last ten classes I’ve attended I could only do one out of each set of two postures (on a good day).
    Besides feeling despondent about my physical strength and performance, I also found myself getting bored and listless… I’m somewhat frustrated about the level of instruction I/we have been receiving, it’s been very basic and formulaic of late – to the extent that I can’t say I’ve learnt anything in the past six months. I know one should rise above and move beyond it all, and throughout my practice I’ve been doing precisely that, but right now, I’m struggling.
    Anyway, during this period, I gradually started attending class only three, maybe four times per week, then I went away for a week, got back, came down with the flu with the result that I missed about ten days of class altogether – a record for me. Last week Sunday I went back for the first time and had a horrible class, barely able to drag myself through it. Yesterday was my first class since, the reason being that on Wednesday this week I once again felt flu-ish (severe headache, muscle pains and feverishness) and, feeling quite alarmed at not being fit two weeks after I first came down with the flu, I went to the doctor.
    Her assessment is that I am ‘fatigued’ which affects the immune system and, in turn, my ability to shake the virus. The dizziness she attributes to the possibility of an iron deficiency (yet again) combined with extremely low blood pressure. She advised a blood test to check my iron levels and a few other things (did not say anything about electrolyte levels, I realised afterwards), taking a lot of rest and: that I stop going to the hot room.
    The question I’m faced with is whether I really should stop going for a while. I strongly considered taking a break, but given my present state of mind I fear it would not be for the right reasons – and despite my embarrassment at having to sit/lie down most of the class – something I might regret at a later stage. As I was made so acutely aware of yesterday, I am concerned that that much of the hard work of the past two years will be undone if I let my practice slip further… At the same time, the physical dimension clearly needs addressing, and I would like to know whether there is an effective way to correct the low blood pressure/iron deficiency and what I suspect to be an electrolyte imbalance – and how much time one should allow for it.

    Last but not least, I’d be interested in any suggestions you might have as to how to restore the sense of peace and joy that used to define my practice.

    A mouthful, I know. 🙂

    Gabrielle (The Hot Yoga Doctor)
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    Hi Cyberry

    It’s lovely to hear from you – even though the reason of your posting is more a distress call.

    >> Firstly, have you had the results of your blood test?
    >> Can you tell me what your blood pressure readings are?

    If you put the possible health issues aside the despondency is obviously a disturbing part of the experience. I frankly don’t agree that you should have to just ‘suck up’ the poor instruction and just be expected to find that spark in your practice.

    It is the responsibility of the teacher to … umm … TEACH, which means attending to the different levels in the class and presenting distinctions to the students that happen to be there. That scripted approach does not work. You are proof of that.

    Be that as it may, if going to that studio is your only choice and you WANT to keep going (or at least find the passion again) then you have to find a way to move past ‘the stories’ in your head about what’s happening to you, the reasons why you feel this way, your theories about the Fe and the BP, the struggle, the expectations about how you should be performing in class, your expectations about what others ‘must be thinking’ and how that is affecting you, and the stuff about taking time off.

    It’s true that the thinking mind does get in the way. With a good practice the fulfillment comes from somehow managing to get past the thinking mind. That seems to be one of the greatest benefits of hot yoga. Somehow you’ve lately been bypassing this biggie. A book I just read called “The Happiness Trap” recommends some very simple techniques that you could use here too. EG: “Oh, I notice I am having that thought about … ” Fill in the blanks.

    Anyway, I am sure there’s more to it than all this. Can you give me more idea about the BP and blood situation? And any other thoughts you’re having about it all.

    Is practising at home an option for you? It can be extremely fulfilling to do that if you have a space and can heat. Let me know!

    Namaste
    Gabrielle 🙂

    Springtime
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    Post count: 44

    I’ve experienced lots of different teachers. Even with those who teach the dialogue by rote I find that I can pay attention to those little details like tightening my butt or my thighs or… that are included in the dialogue. By focusing on those little details, where I know I can always do more and longer, where I know I have not “arrived” if there were such a thing, I keep it fresh even when it is the same thing over and over, and the teacher is uninspired and uninspiring.

    I’m with Gabrielle on the stories I tell myself. For me, that is a part of this practice, to be more in control of, more aware of the stories I am telling myself, and whether those stories are working for me. Many times they are not, and so my work is to find new stories, new ways of looking at, perceiving what I am experiencing, ways which work for me. That mental work, for me, is a big part of the practice.

    My best wishes for you.

    Cyberry
    Participant
    Post count: 67

    Dear Gabrielle

    Thank you for your reply, and my apologies for my relatively slow response.

    I have not received the result of my blood test yet, it will however be available tomorrow. Regarding the blood pressure reading, I’m slightly embarrassed to say that I did not catch the first part… but the second is 60, if that is of any use…

    I have no idea what on earth is causing my physical condition other than the things mentioned. Hopefully I will have greater clarity tomorrow.

    The slightly better news is that I have managed to go to class three days in a row now. I still feel awful: dizzy and terribly short of breath but I’m just going with flow, so to speak. In practice that means that I sometimes do only one out of the set of two postures, and often I skip a few in a row…

    But I am there and I feel slightly calmer about the fact that I am practically an invalid. 🙂

    Thanks for the ref to ‘ The Happiness Trap’ (you mentioned it elsewhere as well) and I’ve decided to order it despite my reservations. (I’m often too critical for my own good, but I have undertaken to read it with an open mind. :-))

    I’ll let you know about the tests and doctor’s advice…

    Yours,
    C

    Cyberry
    Participant
    Post count: 67

    Dear Springtime

    I just wrote you quite a detailed response but lost it!!

    In any event, thank you for your thoughts and kind wishes, much appreciated.

    C

    Gabrielle (The Hot Yoga Doctor)
    Forum Owner
    Post count: 3048

    Hi Cyberry

    Just 2 things: I am eagerly awaiting your results. And … I lost a few posts in the beginning months of this forum. If you’re taking a long time to write something, never (and I mean never!) press “submit post” without first checking it first with a click on “Preview Post”. Sometimes it times out, but, if you’ve previewed first you can always ‘go back’ til you find it. This is impossible if you have only selected ‘submit’.

    Because you tend to write quite detailed posts it’s worth knowing that trick. Actually since losing a few, I almost never submit without a preview first.

    Namaste
    Gabrielle 🙂

    Cyberry
    Participant
    Post count: 67

    Hi Gabrielle

    Thank you for the useful tip, I will certainly never submit before first previewing a post!

    I’m afraid the test results have not brought much clarity. Apart from an iron deficiency nothing abnormal was detected. That is, I am not anaemic as the doctor suspected and my electrolyte levels (which I had tested on the sly) are also normal. Whilst this is good news, of course, it does not shed any further light on ‘my condition’ which persists.

    Perhaps this is just a combination of low blood pressure and being somewhat fatigued? I do look very pale… and the dizziness in class is accompanied by that wiped out ashen faced look… And perhaps the ‘out of breath’ issue is related to the iron deficiency? Wish I had studied medicine!!!! 🙂

    Despite the fact that I am forced to take it very very very easy and the sympathetic/concerned looks from other regulars, I still feel better after class than before.

    I shall be going on holiday in few days’ time, and who knows, perhaps some sunshine,a beautiful natural setting and good food is just what I need.

    I will be touch.
    CX

    Cyberry
    Participant
    Post count: 67

    Dear Gabrielle,

    Just checking in: I have returned from my holidays, a week of which was spent at a BY retreat in the Italian countryside. Interestingly, I had little to no problem with dizziness or shortness of breath and it was wonderful to be able to do the yoga every day (even did two classes on two of those days!).

    As there was no hot room, we practiced in the open air which, together with a correction of my breathing in Pranayama, is what I suspect made all the difference. I was also given a remedy called Ruta for my hamstring injury (still lingering) which I discovered upon my return also treats shortness of breath.

    I have been to yoga once since I’ve been back and although I had moments where I had to sit down, it was not nearly as bad as previously. So who knows, with autumn setting in and humidity levels dropping and taking a few remedies, I might be back on track in no time.

    Does it make sense to you at all?

    C

    Gabrielle (The Hot Yoga Doctor)
    Forum Owner
    Post count: 3048

    Hi Cyberry

    It’s almost a week on… is it continuing to be easier? Do you have any info on those elusive tests and that BP reading?

    Namaste
    Gabrielle 🙂

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