Mich

Hi there
Unlike the others I have never been diagnosed with depression low level or otherwise, I have just experienced the usual amount of self criticism we all seem to suffer from. I have found that my best classes are the ones where I really try not to think and just focus on the voice of the instructor. If you cant do a pose just make an effort to do your best, it really is better than giving up and lying on the floor. I read a book by Eckhart Tolle called ‘the Power of now’ which talks about how he was depressed to the point of suicide and how he overcame it. I wont go into detail because it’s really worth reading but one aspect of it is about learning to control the mind and make it work for you rather than letting it control you which is what it sounds like its doing at the moment. Hope it gets better for you and good on you for even doing Bikram, most people that know I do it think I’m mad. Ooh another thing to do would be to try the 30 day challenge, you might be so knackered you wont have time to listen to yourself and there’s always the chance of improvement which is great.
cheers, thinking of you
Michele