Victoriakelley

Oh Gabrielle
You are wonderful and insightful! I haven’t told any of the teachers because, yes, they have drunk the Kool Aid. One of my teachers is on her way to CA to help with B teacher training. And I do think I will encounter some serious push back about my choice. But deep down I know that the YTT I plan to attend has a very full program that teaches philosophy, posture clinics, NO script, and so much more. I know the schedule of each day and it doesn’t include being kept up until all hours watching Bollywood movies or attending parties and then falling into bed exhausted only to get a few hours of sleep. The man who is running the YTT told me to expect to receive a package with books that I should start reading in preparation for the program. He told me to make notes, write down questions and to stop and think about my questions and ask them with my heart. He told me I was going to learn that yoga is more than a 90 minute regimented class. That conversation was a clear message that this hot yoga training was going to be exactly what I had hoped for!

Your message helped me understand some things that were nagging at the back of my brain but I couldn’t articulate. I was feeling like I was being disloyal. And I certainly don’t want to think that my current teachers would humiliate me about my decision, but I believe there is a very good chance that will happen. But in the end I know full well, that after I complete YTT I won’t be going back to the B studio because I will have embarked on a new journey. It wasn’t really clear until I read your post and then did some of my own soul searching.

I am so grateful that you took the time to write and to give me the nudge (kick in the pants) I needed to remember that this is MY life, MY dream and I have every right to
go for it.

And as for what I am expecting …. I believe I will be challenged physically and mentally in a good way. I’ll have the chance to ask questions and to be heard and respected.
I’ll gain experience teaching and interacting with students in a positive manner that helps them feel encouraged about their practice. This will likely be one of the hardest things I’ve ever done but that’s exciting, too.

Thank you, Gabrielle. I look forward to the day that I can meet you in person. Until then, thank you for being a wonderful sounding board with sane and sage advice.
Vicki