sukha2012

Hi Kristin and Gabrielle –

Thanks so much for both of your quick responses 🙂

This is probably super-strange, but I find the anxious feeling cropping up at the last savasana; the first and middle ones are generally OK. As I’m lying there, thinking my “anchor phrase” (“You will because you can”) I start feeling like I won’t “make it” through. Kind of like when I was training for a half marathon (got hurt, which is how I found hot yoga, got to a certain point and felt panicky that I couldn’t/wouldn’t finish the route.

MAYBE, and this *just* occured to me, I am feeling anxious because my yoga time is drawing to a close and I have to step back into life which includes a family, a fairly stressful job, trying to fit in a 30 day challenge, and copious amounts of guilt. Yikes. That kind of just poured out there. Sorry about that. Anyway, I just thought of that as a possibility.

Or I’m just overthinking it like I do everything and I can just breathe through it, realizing that panicky feelings will pass eventually.

Back to answering Kristin’s questions: I generally am lying down with my eyes closed and a towel over my eyes and forehead to soak up the sweat (I *hate* when sweat runs into my ears when I’m trying to be still!) When I am lying flat the anxious feelings are more intense, but if I bend my knees so my lower back is totally flat on the floor it helps physically. But then I start wondering if by bending my knees and having the soles of my feet flat on the floor means that I’m “doing it wrong”. But THEN I tell myself (1) it’s pretty hard to mess up savasana and (2) to shut up already, it’s time to relax and turn off the thoughts.

I know it’s just something to work through on this journey, and I’m actually kind of proud of myself for recognizing that this is happening. I never used to be this connected to my body and my thoughts.