littleblondidesigns

hi silverhuang,

I have just read your post and joined this forum just so that I can get in contact with you.

I have had M.E/CFS for five years. Like, Droma and most patients with this hideous condition I also have struggled with ‘pacing’, it’s not because we’re overmotivated nutters but because when you can’t do anything for a week, you then have a weeks worth of stuff to do when you do have some energy and that puts you straight back in bed.

Bikram yoga has changed my life. It changed it by showing me I was still ill. I have a sneaking suspicion that you did the lightning process? could this be true? It is a very powerful mental tool which you can use to pretend that you are no longer ill. the cruelest thing about it is that when you, inevitably, can no longer surpress your symptoms the pressure is on you for ‘not working hard enough’ at the process to stay well. I had done the lightning process about 4 months before I found Bikram and although I was UTTERLY convinced I had recovered, I still needed to work at staying on track constantly, continually fighting aginst the desire to lie down because I was so desperate to be well again.

Mental state, however, is very important with M.E/CFS, but not ignoring symptoms. Bikram yoga has helped me lead a pain free life, taught me to be calmer, more compassionate and accepting of myself, my illness and those around me. However, i am only able to visit the studio 2 or 3 times a week and do 2-4 home practices a week allowing myself to fully recover between each posture. It is possible to have a life and still have M.E. It is possible to recover from M.E. but not while you are fighting against yourself.

If you would ever like to chat here’s my email address ‘littleblondidesigns AT gmail.com’.