m.voulova

Hi, thanks for the support!

I think I had a breakthrough!!! Yesterday I decided to sit and do some meditation (which I used to do every day but had stopped since i hurt my back cause it was painful to sit still). So I sat though the pain just observing it and not reacting and amazingly my body was able to exit panic mode and relax. So after one hour of meditation I still felt pain but was very clam about it and decided to do some stretches as I was still sitting on the floor. I basically just ALLOWED my body to stretch down naturally with gravity instead of FORCING it to stretch. It was absolutely amazing – i felt some stretching pain but I was just observing it and not reacting and slowly the muscles would release and I was able to get closer and closer to the floor. So finally in child’s pose I was able to touch my forehead to the floor like I used to be able to!!! Anyway, I feel a LOT BETTER now. There is still some pain and I still have to be very careful about how I do things but my mobility has increased to the point where I almost feel normal. But the most important thing is that I now see the light and know that I will be ok. I am thinking of going back to Bikram next week but definitely not pulling to stretch in any of the postures. I might just go and let my body do what it can. Looking back at it, I think one has to be very careful with the ego in Bikram – it can push us to do stupid things. At the end I will probably go back to Iyengar style yoga – I had a teacher who would look at you and if he thought you were trying too hard he would ask ‘Do you need a hammer?” . I think a lot of time we try to ‘hammer’ our body into a position we want it to go in instead of listening to it, respecting it and being patient.

Anyway, thanks a lot for the encouragement. I might go to the chiropractor anyway just in case to see what he/she says.